Here I am back to writingâ€¦..It took me some time to come back to my posts. March was an amazing month and in the same time very intense, with a lot of traveling, meaningful conversations with amazing people, exploring, reflecting, meeting my family and and andâ€¦..and so here I am sitting in the Obenaus garden, drinking my smoothie with freshly gathered nettle, apples and honey and thinking what do I want to share with this post.
Recently I am reflecting a lot on my personal transformational journeyâ€¦.in August 2014 I quit my management consulting job in Frankfurt, left to Karlskrona, Sweden to study Masterâ€™s in Strategic Leadership towards Sustainability. In June 2015 I graduated and for 2 months I was traveling through Europe, being a nomad with a lot of homesâ€¦..I started working with online facilitationâ€¦.continued travelingâ€¦.living in a communityâ€¦.stepping in and stepping back, doing and being, exploring, listening to my intuition, groaning and growingâ€¦.
Looking back at the last year and a half, it has been such an amazing journeyâ€¦.a journey I could never plan, expect or even imagine. When does the transformation process started? A lot of people think that it was since I left my job in Frankfurtâ€¦.indeed the journey stared then but the process started much earlier. It is even difficult to say whenâ€¦.it accelerated after I took 7 weeks off in January 2013 to travel to Latin America but it started even before. I would not try to find the exact starting pointâ€¦.is there such?... or our life is an ongoing transition?
I am asking myself why am I writing this post?â€¦.What is the purpose of it?â€¦â€¦and to be honest I am not sureâ€¦ I am reflecting, sharing, exploring my own journeyâ€¦..
What starts to become more and more clear for me is that transition periods are coming again and againâ€¦..the 10 months I spent in Karlskrona were a high speed transition incubator, then started the transition period back to real life, now another phase is starting and I have no idea what it will bring. What is actually transition? For me it is very difficult to put it into words, because for me transition starts with a feeling, inner impulse, longingâ€¦..I just realise that I start calling it a transition once my mind has responded to this inner call and the process becomes conscious. What I am practicing a lot is listening to this inner call. More I am in this practice, more I start to realise that the answers of my questions are indeed already inside of me. Sometimes i donâ€™t like them and I try to create others but at the end it might take a retour but will get back to the original answer. It starts to sound a bit abstractâ€¦..This practice applies not only to the big decisions in my life but to the everyday questions and engagements I encounter. It has to do a lot with the question When to step in and when to step back? â€¦..this was the calling question of the Art of Hosting training in March in Karlskronaâ€¦..this question is very much working with me.
I am getting too much into my headâ€¦.time to enjoy the summer in Obenaus :-)